Es muss sein!
I had conscience of that moment, that part of the routine, it was the highest degree of well-being, it was a pleasure; i was never plenty happy like in that moment, i had the hurting sensation that i´ll never being again, at least on that degree, with that intensity, the top it is, of course it is. Also i´m sure that the top is just a second, a few second, an instant shine and there´s no chance to extend it.