I'm sick of always having to lose my best friends or my close friends and yes even my good friends. I dont see the point in calling anyone more than friends now because if you call them your close, best, or good friends it just gives them rights to treat you like shit until they need something from you or need you for something. I love my friends to death, but at times they are shitty friends. I feel like i have have no more than 5 actual friends under the age of 19. and that's kinda different since i'm only 16 going on 17. my sister is just now turning 19...so it's like her as an actual friend...sometimes maybe. idk but i'm sick of how when they worked and i didn't i would schedule my shit around their work, and now that i work and they have all teh free time in the world they can't wait for the next day when i ahve a free afternoon to do something. they just wanna do it when i work. and then they friggin ignore me most the time, i sit somewhere or stand in a group and everyone is talking to someone but me cuz i'm friendsless. i sware if i died no one would remember my name after that first month without me with a few exceptions of course. and if i ran away, which i have thought about, it would take people awhile to even realize that i am gone. i bet it's take at least 3-7 days. when if one of them are gone for like 2 hrs then another is freaking out. i had friends there is no point....besides to keep me alive and well....