sometimes i feel ... HAPPY!

but mostly i feel ... SAD ... AFRAID ... ANGRY ... HOPELESS ... IN PAIN ... EMPTY... ALONE ...

when people ask me why i'm sad i do not have a definite answer for them. I can only make one up to satisfy their question...

I feel alone, empty, in pain, emotional, all at the same time.
I don't understand myself or why i feel this way.

most of the time i wear a mask... if you could see inside me, you would know i feel like i'm dying. I keep it all inside and it only comes out when i'm all alone.

there are only one handful of people in my life that know, i keep it a secret because i don't want people to think i'm crazy...

i feel immerse emmotional pain so much sometimes that i just sleep so don't have to feel it...

i feel so much emmotional pain that sometimes i have to fight myself not to hurt myself...

i'm so affraid of being abandoned that i start to surfer in anticipation...

i don't trust people, so i hide from the world...

some people want to know what it feels like to have borderline... IT'S LIKE HELL.

OUR MOODS CHANGE CONSTANTLY,
WE SEE THINGS ONLY IN BLACK AND WHITE TERMS
WE EITHER LOVE SOMEONE OR HATE THEM
WE FEEL EMPTY INSIDE AND GREAT EMOCIONAL PAIN AT THE SAME TIME.

we are so emotional sometimes we get impulsive and do anyting to relieve the pain... we feel emotions much stronger and deeper than most and the after effects of the emoctions can last for very long periods of time...